Thanks

Somewhere, deep down inside, I found the strength to save a friendship. I found the part of me that needed to let go of frustrations and indignities and hurt, and I found the courage to move on and salvage a relationship I love. I have also found it apropos to thank whoever it is I should thank for these next few weeks - they are precious.

My dad celebrates another birthday tomorrow. I didn't know last year how much this year would hang in the balance, but it has; I think we will all blow out the candles together and cross our fingers for moments of joy.

I am utterly grateful to the man that taught me how to go after what I want, to take nothing for granted, to protect what's important and to never sell myself short. I love you and I will miss you...and I feel as though an important chapter in my life is closing.

My marriage and my cats turn four. I know that five is somehow symbolic of a milestone, but I choose to think that four years are a milestone in and of themselves. Four years - four of us. It fits.

For all of the holidays, the celebrations, the good-byes, the good-lucks, the welcomes and the I-miss-yous, here's hoping that I can say what I feel to those that need to hear it.

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put ‘em in quotations

Say what you need to say

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you’d be better off instead,
If you only could . . .

Say what you need to say

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You’d better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say

-John Mayer